Can You Pay My Bills?

The rent is due yet again!
It feels like just yesterday my roommate handed me our rent receipt for last month. Now, again, it's time to pay the piper.
My internet may be turned off tomorrow.
My phone is off now.
ALL my bills are due.
I have a question: why did I go to college? Why do I have a degree? I am so tired of being broke all the time! I wish that I was just wasteful with my money, but that is not the case. There is always someone or something I have to pay.
I should have gone to college looking for a man to financially support me, but instead, I wanted to learn. WHAT A MISTAKE! I am taking applications. I am tired of being bummed. This independent woman thing is just something that Ne-yo and Beyoncé sold us and newsflash guys: it's damaged goods. Bey was already rich!
After I pay my bills, I have enough money left to wipe my tears. I am so ready for a capable man to come in an clean up this financial mess and support me like society has trained him to do.
He can be old, ugly, gross, young, hot, sexy, stupid, whatever: I am over being financially stressed all the time. I want to know what date it is just because I know, not because I need to know in relation to when a bill is due.
Okay, that is all.

Bloglovin'

Hey, go to the upper right hand corner of my page. I'm on Bloglovin'! Late I know, but follow me. Please and thank you:)

Breaking Bad is on Netflix. I don't like starting a show and then stopping it. It throws me off. But it was giving me nightmares, lol. Hints of blue meth were popping up in all of my dreams. Today, during a nap, I had a dream that my paycheck was stolen by a man that wanted me to meet him in an apartment complex bathroom. I did, and then he forced me into his van with a baby and took me to a Los Pollos Hermanos where he made prostitutes in another van have sex with him before getting in a line to be shot up with meth with the same needle. Not your usual daytime dream right? Again, I think I am going to have to cool it on Mr. White and the gang for now.

Hitched

Brownie got married.
I know this because I saw the pictures on is wife's Facebook page.
The question still remains: do you ever get accustomed to being friend dumped? I say no. I think I would have gotten over a breakup with someone I actually dated quicker than I am getting over this.
P says that I am emotional. I have to agree. I think of that comment in so many situations that it has to be true. In regards to this, I guess I am just being emotional again.

Breast Cancer

One of my biggest fears in the world is being diagnosed with Breast Cancer. So you can imagine how uncomfortable I am EVERY October, seeing that it is Breast Cancer Awareness Month. Everywhere is pink this and pink that, and I know that we have to get the word out to save lives, but all I feel is fear.
For the past four days my Facebook feed has been full of how-to breast check tips and testimonials from survivors. Seeing this gives me chills. I know that I need to do a self check, but I am pretty much afraid of my own boobs.
People survive Breast Cancer but I wouldn't. I am not a fighter and I am broke with no insurance. The end result would be me bleeding death after trying to remove my own boob at home. These are the grim thoughts I have when I see anything pink or Breast Cancer related.
A few months ago, I went to Planned Parenthood and they gave me a breast check on the slick. They said I had healthy breast tissue, but now my boobs hurt. And all I can think of is me dying just shy of my 29th birthday from stage four cancer. Yes I know, I have to go to the doctor again this month. I can't think of anything else I rather NOT do.
So, that was your dose of grim for the day. Anyone know any funny jokes?

Rihanna - Pour It Up (Explicit)

Yikes.

I had a good hair day yesterday. You wouldn't know it to see me this morning.