Epic Failure

Okay, so I can go ahead and say that last night was an epic failure on my end: looking up Dreads on Facebook. Now he is on my mind. You know, now that I know he is real again. I had convinced myself he was a dream, which, now that I have reversed my healing, I was see was working. DZ told me to block him on Facebook. Can't block someone you aren't friends with, lol. I'm such a loser. Talked to FeFe about it and she said that relapsing is part of recovery. I don't know. That doesn't sound right to me. But it was the best she could do I know. She works with drug addicts.