So while I was in LA, I got the chance to meet with my friend LL, and we spoke at the hotel bar about how we don't have, and don't know any women that do have, high self esteem. After a brief comparison of stories, we have found that at one point we did have some, but it was sucked from us by a boy.
Confidence. Self Esteem. I can't say that I have much. I hope that it is something that you kid of ease into with age. Maybe ten years from now, I will be the queen of self love. But I can't see that for myself now I have found that the key for ladies my age, from what I have seen, is faking it until you make it: pretending you are the shit to get through the day and get what you need, and then going home and crying because your real hair is shoot or your boobs are saggy.
I know it sounds sounds sad, but for me, it sounds sadder than it really is. It is just the way it is, at least through my eyes. I just hope to get to a point where I don't need male reassurance and don't care that my but is flat.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
I am not sure if any of you are going to be as excited as I am, but I just found out that Absolutely Fabulous, one of my fav British comedies, is on Youtube! I damn near cried last night, going through all the episodes. I love this show! I love the fashion and the jokes and the drugs and alcohol and everything about it! It used to come on Comedy Central when I was a kid, and I had not seen it since. So excited! I know, I'm a nerd.Wifey Siting...Maybe
So Friday, when I was coming home from an event, I nearly screamed. I swear that I saw Mrs. Dreads waiting on the train.
My heart was racing, I had to take a deep breath. I couldn't be sure if it was her, for I haven't Facebook stalked her in a while. I just know that she and this lady had similar features.
It felt like this woman was avoiding me, but when you are waiting on the train, it is customary not to make eye contact with people.
It may not have been her because Dreads had a car, so I assume she has one too. Also, they live in Stone Mountain. I am not sure if the train goes all the way out there. And, she has eight kids and there were no kids with this lady. I can't imagine a woman with that many kids being able to go anywhere without one of them.
Whether it was her or not, it was still scary. Man, I hope to never put myself in this situation ever again. It's too much.
My heart was racing, I had to take a deep breath. I couldn't be sure if it was her, for I haven't Facebook stalked her in a while. I just know that she and this lady had similar features.
It felt like this woman was avoiding me, but when you are waiting on the train, it is customary not to make eye contact with people.
It may not have been her because Dreads had a car, so I assume she has one too. Also, they live in Stone Mountain. I am not sure if the train goes all the way out there. And, she has eight kids and there were no kids with this lady. I can't imagine a woman with that many kids being able to go anywhere without one of them.
Whether it was her or not, it was still scary. Man, I hope to never put myself in this situation ever again. It's too much.
OK, so this week, I went to the opening of Derek J's ATL salon, The J Spot. You may know him The Real Housewives of Atlanta, where he did Kim's wigs. He's really nice and really, really, chic. You may also know him from his trademark heels.I also got to meet Chanita Foster from Football Wives. The picture is bad, lol, I know. I took it on my phone.
Ice Tray
OK, so when I got back from LA I had hella packages that I had to mail back to Los Angeles. Why? Long, complicated story.
So I go to the UPS store and was greeted by the two dudes on staff. I don't know their names as of yet, but I have nicknamed Clean Cut and Ice Tray.
I had sooo much stuff to mail off that I was in there for over an hour. It was really a stressful mess. But they were like hella cool and really funny.
So OK, I kind of like Ice Tray. He's cute. He looks like he should have been in NWA.
I saw him on the bus the other day with his two kids. Ouch! I don't know how old they were, but they were old enough to read. The boy had a book. And the girl was old enough to talk.
I am not sure if kids are a no dealer. And I don't know if he is still with the children's mother. First things first- I want to ask him to go to the movies with me. I called the store yesterday and asked for "the guy in the hat", but he was off. I will call again today. Fingers crossed that I don't get rejected.
So I go to the UPS store and was greeted by the two dudes on staff. I don't know their names as of yet, but I have nicknamed Clean Cut and Ice Tray.
I had sooo much stuff to mail off that I was in there for over an hour. It was really a stressful mess. But they were like hella cool and really funny.
So OK, I kind of like Ice Tray. He's cute. He looks like he should have been in NWA.
I saw him on the bus the other day with his two kids. Ouch! I don't know how old they were, but they were old enough to read. The boy had a book. And the girl was old enough to talk.
I am not sure if kids are a no dealer. And I don't know if he is still with the children's mother. First things first- I want to ask him to go to the movies with me. I called the store yesterday and asked for "the guy in the hat", but he was off. I will call again today. Fingers crossed that I don't get rejected.
Monday, October 10, 2011
LA Swinging
I am so sorry that I have been neglectful guys. I have been spending the past few weeks putting together a photo shoot in LA for my job. And can I say, it went WONDERFULLY! I am a genius:)Other than working, I got to see my some of my LA homies like Dorothy, Lauren, and LL. I also spent a large amount of time in the rental car with my editor lost in downtown.
Other than that, LA was just as I remembered it: warm, fashionable, and ridiculous. Everyone was super thin and super superficial. As a fat, down-to-Earth girl, I have to say, I was shocked, as always, at how at home I felt in there. Being surrounded by palm trees and the scent of Marijuana seemed to be the pick-me-up I needed:)
Other than that, LA was just as I remembered it: warm, fashionable, and ridiculous. Everyone was super thin and super superficial. As a fat, down-to-Earth girl, I have to say, I was shocked, as always, at how at home I felt in there. Being surrounded by palm trees and the scent of Marijuana seemed to be the pick-me-up I needed:)
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