Felisha sent me this journal for my birthday. I laughed when I opened the box and saw it with an adorable pair of quotation mark earrings. I guess my anxiety issues are more obvious than I had thought. I am very excited about this journal in the New Year. It will totally be utilized.

More Boy Dreams

Okay, so I had another dream, lol. Needless to say, I have been having restless sleep.
I had a dream that it was after Quinny's wedding, and all the guests at the wedding were on a big coach bus. Quinny and his wife had invited everyone from the wedding on their honeymoon, and we were taking a bus to a hotel.
I was really, really excited to be hanging with my homies. I was having fun on the bus and sitting behind Quinny. I kept plucking him in the back of the head though, but he wouldn't turn around.
Anyway, we get to this big hotel on top of a hill when I realize that I don't have any money! For some reason, I assumed that Quinny was paying for every one's room. So I go to the hotel lady and she informs me that I had to pay for my room. I start begging my friends to let me stay in their rooms, but they were all like no. Even Amber said no, and she is one of my besties.
All I had was enough money to get back on the coach bus. The only person I knew would let me stay with them was Quinny, but I couldn't find him.
When I woke up from this dream, I was hella scared I was broke, lol, and felt panicked. I literally woke up and reached for my purse! I don't know if this dream was a commentary on my finances or friendship with Quinny. Weird.

Friend Dumped Dreams

I have not spoken to Brownie in ages.
He sent me a happy birthday text that was hella simple. Something like happy birthday, merry Christmas. This is weird when you consider that I used to talk to him like all the time and he hadn't answered any of my texts since Miami.
I can't remember if I blogged about Miami, but the long and short of it was that after an hour with me, his fiancée assumed we had boned and went ballistic and threatened to leave him.
It was ugly.
So the other night I had a dream that is still with me. I am not sure if it was a dream or a nightmare.
I had a dream that my mom drove me to a Christmas party, and it was work for me. I was trying to get interviews while I was there. Suddenly, it was time for the food, and I got in line to get a plate. And who was in front of me, talking to a group of guys but Brownie.
"Nigga where have you been?!" I demanded.
And he went ham. He started screaming, "You are not my wife! You are not my wife!"
And I was like, "I know!"
But no one heard me and everyone was staring. He kept saying it. So I ran outside to go home, but my mom had left the car and gone inside to pee. That was the end of the dream.
I don't really want to know what it means, lol.

Progress

Today I bought the domain for my business website. Smiles all around! I keep going to the website eventhough there is nothing there, lol, but links. I am SO excited. It's only the first of the year, and I feel the progress.

My grandma on Christmas! Always the trendsetter, she is bringing back the Blossom hat!

I have been spending more time with my sister! She came over my house and I gave her a makeover, and yesterday, we went to see Django!

Daddy Love

Yesterday, my dad chatted me that he loves me.
I can't even remember what he said before or after that or what I could have said to make him say that.
My dad told me he loves me and my head is in the clouds.
DZ said I am too effected by not having a dad and pretty much need to get over it because none of us had dads.
This is true.
But to have not really ever had a relationship with him and he say that makes me feel some kind a way, more good than bad, than I can't describe.
LOL, I wonder if he can remember if he said it?
Either way, it has effected me.